In the opening chapter of Unweaving the Rainbow, Richard Dawkins writes that “we are going to die, and that makes us the lucky ones. Most people are never going to die because they are never going to be born.” He goes on to write that the number of people who could be here in our place outnumber the grains of sand in Arabia. I don’t know if he went and counted, but I’ve always appreciated the analogy. We don’t know how lucky we really are. So what are we to do with the time that we have? Anything. Something. We work hard. We never relax. We put everything we’ve got into everything we do. That’s my philosophy. Hey, you clicked on my about page.
So who the hell is this guy?
I’m a wannabe writer who can’t write very well, but tries. I’m aware that Charles Bukowski advised quite strongly against trying, but he postfaced that by saying that “you wait, and if nothing happens, you wait some more. It’s like a bug high on the wall. You wait for it to come to you. When it gets close enough you reach out, slap out and kill it. Or if you like its looks, you make a pet out of it.” So, I’m making a pet out of it and something is happening. I’m not sure what. I’ve nearly finished my second novel and I’m starting this blog to force myself to share more of what I write. I lecture or teach or something like that in Film Studies at a Sixth Form College in Sussex. I can talk to you for hours about East Asian New Wave cinema or feminist film theory, but I’ll save it for my students. I make films too. Well, I write them mostly. Sometimes I direct them. You can watch my latest here.
I don’t want this to be a blog. Ugh, another blog. Who am I kidding? It’s totally going to be a blog, but let’s wreck all the preconceived notions we bring to it. I don’t have emo ex-girlfriends to write about and I haven’t been on any ayahuasca retreats in Peru. I did live in South Korea for a year, but haven’t we all. The world is getting smaller and I can buy pink dragon fruit from Vietnam in the supermarket. I love pink dragon fruit.
I’m a massive geek and I have fleeting obsessions with various different fandoms. If I went on Mastermind my specialist subject would be Buffy the Vampire Slayer. There isn’t a question I can’t answer. I happen to think that it was one of the most important cultural moments of the past twenty years and I can’t believe it’s been twenty years! I play a tonne of video games and I read a tonne books. I walk around most days inside a dream.
I guess the purpose of this about page is to give a snapshot of my identity and I feel like I’ve done that. It’s difficult to communicate your personality succinctly, but when you’re pretty sure nobody is going to read it anyway it definitely makes things easier.
The owls are not what they seem.
Sean Upton (20/07/2016)